I had a dream...

Cookies
To dream that you are eating, giving, receiving, or stealing cookies, signify that you will let trivial problems and minor disputes annoy you.

Choking
Choking dreams are often a fearful experience and it is not uncommon for dreamers to awaken from them. To dream that you are choking on an object, suggests that you may find some advice/remarks/situation hard to swallow or difficult to accept. Alternatively, you may feel that you are unable to completely express yourself in a situation. In particular, if you are choking on food, then it may be an expression of self-guilt and unnurtured feelings. If you are choking on smoke, then it indicates something you are unwilling to confront.

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The Car is Dead

I was 2 minutes away from home. It was 12 in the morning, raining, and I was going... too fast... down my favorite hill, made the hairpin turn without braking, fishtailed, and hit a pole pretty fucking hard.

I walked away from that incident without a scratch. Killed the car though.

I WAS SOBER.
imagine if i wasn't... would i be dead? would i have not been driving so fast?

i'll elaborate on the whole story if anyone asks. honestly, i'm too sad right now to type it all out here... i'm not even sure anyone reads my posts.

too much on my mind. i had plans. i can't sleep, and when i do i sleep all day. but that's what i did before the crash too...

There's a reason why i'm still alive.
I think a higher power may be trying to tell me something.
OR...
I could be dead right now, and not even know that I'm a ghost.

How do ghosts know they're dead anyway? I need to know. I could be haunting people without even knowing it.